Erin’s Wedding in Wisco this weekend. I’m still dragging my feet here- only finishing two pages in three weeks. I feel like a snail. But after this I have three weeks until the next wedding so six more pages will get done and then seven to go (or three more weeks).
Why is it still hot, New York? 92 degrees today, really? Fall hurry up!
Nervous Wreak City. I’m planning on visiting it this weekend. I heard the weather sucks there but after the week I had at my day job I might as well get hyper-critical about my drawings and buy a one-way ticket to NWC.
From my recent frolic in Central Park with my old friend Blair, I was reminded of an interview with Shane Carruth, the creator of the films Primer and Upstream Color. His first film, Primer, he made for under $7,000- but during the process of putting it together he had nervous breakdowns almost every three weeks. So much so, he came to the point of possibly scrapping what film he already had finished due to the stress.
Being an artist and working alone is hard. You are your own motivator. And unfortunately you are the last person you want to trust to keep you motivated.
My remedy for this?
It’s much easier to be like those fitness gurus who place motivational signs in front of their treadmills like “Run Fatty Run!” or “One last mile!” And that’s what I largely attempt to do.
Instead of tossing everything out I recall what Craig Thompson said at a book reading. Things become clearer perspective-wise once you finish the work- but you must finish the work first. Just imagine if Shane didn’t finish Primer, the world would have lost such a great film. So even though I don’t feel like drawing at all right now I need to look to the post-it on my computer that say: “Run Fatty Run!”
As I said before, numbers make things important.
I counted this week and I have seven weeks of work to do before I finish drawing chapter Three. I can’t believe it. (alright I can- I’ve been barely sleeping). If I can finish prior to November, which will be a stretch with a vacation weekend in Rhode Island, two weddings in the Midwest to attend, and Packer season about to begin, then I might have enough time to revise the beginning twenty pages and start the fourth chapter process before 2014.
This weekend my wife’s friend from med school is visiting, so hopefully I can disappear for a while and draw like a maniac.